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Death by a Thousand Processes

The Government Sucks.

My husband and I both serve in the military. We believe deeply in service and in doing our part for something bigger than ourselves. Yet this week, as we wait for the government to decide whether to pay those still serving, it is hard not to notice how perfectly this moment reflects a larger truth.

The system we serve no longer serves us back. We have felt that truth for years, not just on a federal level but right here at home in Devine, Texas, where local bureaucracy has smothered the same spirit that once defined the American Dream.


The Dream That Was Supposed to Be Simple

When we came to Devine, our vision was simple. We wanted to build a home, raise our children, invest in property, and contribute to the kind of community that values faith, family, and honest work. We were not chasing riches. We were chasing stability and purpose.

But Devine taught us a hard lesson. The greatest obstacle to the American Dream is not failure. It is bureaucracy. Every attempt to grow or improve met another wall of regulation, delay, or confusion. Permits that should take weeks dragged on for months. Plans were lost, reinterpreted, or simply ignored.

What we faced was not leadership but a culture of death by a thousand processes. It was a system that exhausted rather than empowered.


When Local Problems Reflect a National Pattern

What struck me most was how familiar it all felt. The same patterns we see in Washington—the indecision, the self-preservation, the disregard for ordinary people—were alive and well in our small-town government.

At every level, those who are supposed to serve the public seem to have forgotten what service means. The bureaucrats in Devine, like those in the federal offices now debating paychecks for soldiers and airmen, appear more interested in protecting their positions than improving people’s lives.

They speak in policy language, not plain words. They hold meetings to plan more meetings. And while they shuffle papers, real families are left waiting for answers, for opportunity, and for relief.


Living the Shutdown in Real Time

This government shutdown is personal for us. As military members, we continue to work, to show up, and to serve. But our paychecks are frozen by political gridlock, the same kind of process paralysis that Devine lives under every day.

It is a reminder that the culture of bureaucracy does not start in Washington. It starts in every city hall that refuses to act, every council that delays, and every official who confuses procedure with progress.

The shutdown is just the federal version of what we have already endured locally. Hardworking people are caught in the gears of a system that forgot who it was built to serve.


Why We Are Choosing to Leave

We are not leaving Devine because we stopped believing in community. We are leaving because we are tired of being told “no” by people who do not create anything themselves.

We spent years trying to bring positive growth to a place that claimed to want it. Yet at every turn, the rules changed, the standards shifted, and the vision blurred. The same leaders who talked about revitalization rejected every opportunity to make it happen.

It became clear that many in local government would rather maintain control than make progress. They do not fear decline. They fear change.


The Bigger Truth

Our story is not unique. Across the country, Americans are running into the same invisible wall. Whether it is small-town zoning boards or congressional committees, the effect is the same. Government has become an obstacle to the very people it was designed to empower.

Bureaucracy has replaced service. Agendas have replaced accountability. The American Dream is not dead, but it is being buried alive beneath forms, fees, and processes that produce nothing but fatigue.

We can rebuild it, but not if we keep mistaking regulation for leadership and paperwork for purpose.


Still Serving, Still Hoping

Even now, as we navigate this government shutdown, I still believe in the core of what America can be. I believe in families who work hard, neighbors who show up, and leaders who remember that public office is a position of trust, not entitlement.

My family may leave Devine, but we have not left the mission. We are still serving, still building, and still believing that somewhere in this country, the system can work the way it was meant to.

The American Dream should not require a permit. And it should not depend on whether the government remembers to fund its own servants.

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When Obedience Means Leaving: Trusting God in Transition

The Courage to Begin Again: How Leaving Our Church and the Military Taught Us to Grow Roots in Faith

After serving in our church for three and a half years, I began to sense a shift about two years in. At first, I tried to ignore it. I told myself that every church has its seasons and imperfections. But over time, the strife and division in the church became too difficult to overlook. I was not seeking perfection, only truth and accountability. When those began to erode [and impact my children], I knew it was time to listen to what the Lord was stirring in my spirit.

Leaving a church is not easy, especially when it has been part of your family’s rhythm for years. It had been the place where my children learned memory verses, sang songs of praise, and first began to understand what faith meant. Yet, I could not ignore the responsibility God placed on me as a parent. I want my children to see faith lived with integrity. I want them to know that following Jesus means seeking truth, even when it requires stepping away from what is familiar.

After nearly two decades in the military, my husband and I are no strangers to transition. We have learned how to adapt, serve, and move forward when assignments

change. Now, as we approach retirement, we sense God calling us to a different kind of obedience. This time, it is not about following orders but about building roots. For so long, service required mobility. Now, the Lord is inviting our family into stability, to plant deeply in a community where faith and purpose can grow together.

Leaving our church felt a lot like completing a deployment. You look back with gratitude for what you learned and the people you served beside, but you also know that lingering beyond your mission’s end can hinder growth. Every season has its purpose, and when God releases you, it is not failure. It is faithfulness.

Unity has always mattered to me. I long for my family to be part of a church that holds fast to Scripture and loves people well. True unity is not silence when something is wrong. It is the shared pursuit of truth, humility, and obedience to Christ. Our decision to leave was not an act of division but of devotion. It was an act of trust that God would guide us toward a body of believers who live out His Word with consistency and grace.

As we visit new churches, we pray together for wisdom. We ask God to lead us where we can grow, serve, and share the Gospel freely. We are not looking for a place that entertains or comforts us. We are looking for a community that lives out the Great Commission, where my children can see faith in action and where we can contribute to God’s work with sincerity.

This season feels like both an ending and a beginning. The military chapter of our life is nearing its close, and with it comes a renewed calling to lead our family by faith rather than by orders. The uniform may come off, but the mission remains the same. We are called to love God, raise our children in His truth, and be witnesses to His faithfulness wherever He plants us.

Clarity often follows courage. The courage to ask questions, to leave when it is easier to stay, and to trust that God’s next chapter will not only grow deeper roots but bear lasting fruit.

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America, Why is Everything Fake and Gay?

America promises freedom and authenticity, yet many people feel surrounded by artifice. From the food we eat to the shows we watch, industries are less concerned with truth and more concerned with shaping perception. Increasingly, these industries wrap their messages around identity, including sexuality and gender. Whether intentional or not, narratives of being gay or transgender are present in everything from advertising to entertainment, and the sense grows that corporations profit not just from products but from cultural transformation.

Food Industry: Marketing Identity Alongside Flavor

American food is engineered to be addictive, using chemicals and design to trigger cravings. Beyond taste, the food industry has learned to package meals and brands in terms of identity. Commercials tie snacks and drinks to values like pride, inclusivity, and self-expression. Seasonal campaigns are no longer only about flavors, they are about who you are when you consume them. What used to be nourishment has become a vehicle for cultural messaging.

Clothing Industry: Fashion as Fluid Identity

The fashion world thrives on change. Trends must be disposable for companies to keep selling. In recent years, brands have increasingly promoted fluidity in sexuality and gender as part of their campaigns. Pride-themed clothing lines, rainbow logos, and gender-neutral collections appear every year. While some see this as positive inclusion, others see it as corporations exploiting sensitive issues to boost profits. Clothing is no longer just fabric, it is a billboard for social and sexual narratives.

Pharmaceutical Industry: Chemical Solutions and Gender Pathways

America’s medical system often manages conditions rather than curing them. At the same time, pharmaceutical companies have expanded into new markets related to identity. Medications and treatments for gender transition are not only medical options but also profit streams. Direct-to-consumer advertising emphasizes that happiness and identity can be unlocked through prescriptions. The result is a perception that health care is no longer neutral but intertwined with cultural debates on sexuality and gender.

Media Industry: Saturated with Storylines

Media is the most powerful cultural influencer in America. Movies, television, and digital platforms amplify themes of sexuality and gender at a rate unmatched in history. LGBTQ+ characters and trans storylines are not only present but often central to programming. While representation matters to some audiences, others see a coordinated push to normalize and monetize new identities. What feels fake is the saturation. Every show, commercial, and news cycle seems to carry the same undertone, creating the impression of an agenda rather than organic diversity.

So long, farewell, Netflix — it’s not me, it’s you.

The Business of Influence

Across industries, the goal is not simply to provide food, clothing, or entertainment but to sell identity. If identity is changeable, it becomes a renewable market. By encouraging Americans to redefine themselves, even sexually or in terms of gender, industries can profit from an endless cycle of new products, treatments, clothing lines, and entertainment. The constant repetition across every sector reinforces the sense that being gay or trans is less about organic personal discovery and more about engineered corporate messaging.

Conclusion

The question of why everything feels fake in America leads to one clear answer: profit. Food companies sell identity, fashion sells fluidity, pharmaceuticals sell solutions, and media sells narratives. Sexuality and gender have become profitable frontiers, repackaged and resold under the banner of progress. What many Americans feel is not just that industries are fake, but that they are being shaped toward identities that can be endlessly marketed. The focus is not on truth, but on influence, and the driving force is money.

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